Friday, July 24, 2015

People who Inspire: Alan Ginsburg "Supermarket in California"

I didn't always love poetry.  In fact I went through a lot of college with out a poem that I really truly loved.  That love came with poetry in 2009 while I was a stay at home mom taking a lit survey class for fun and I first read Allen Ginsburg, "A Supermarket in California".  It is the first poem I ever analyzed in college that I wanted to learn about it's structure and the artist behind it.  I'm specifically analyzing work from 3 different artists as my inspirations: Audre Lorde who is a feminist writer who I've got quotes on fridge with, Rosario Morales, another amazing feminist author and a personal role model,  and than the last is Mr. Ginsburg.  I choose him because he inspires me to look at humor, he was my first real love in poetry because he was so intellectual and funny as shit.  I studied his life and how he choose to take the humorous rode and call it art so loudly that people actually listened (which is rare for humorists in all genres of  respectable writing be it: poems, non-fiction, or fiction).  I loved him because I related to his work and I finally felt academia doesn't always have to be stuffy.  This essay is an adaptation of one written several years ago.  

Allen Ginsburg as an Author in himself is pretty dang cool.  He reminds me so much of my mother who died recently.  Just old enough to have seen everything and brave enough to be a pioneer in everything.  Ginsberg was born just before the depression.  His youth was filled with images of the depression, World War II, and the civil rights movement.  I found it interesting Ginsburg in himself was a pioneer in the homosexual revolution of San Francisco and the Castro.  One of the things I loved the most was that Ginsberg spent his entire life studying and in some cases even working under his favorite writers.  It makes sense to me because his works were highly transcendent through poetic genres.  

See more at: http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15306#sthash.f7iPv9hw.dpuf

What thoughts I have of you tonight, Walt Whitman, for I walked 
down the sidestreets under the trees with a headache self-conscious looking 
at the full moon.
  In my hungry fatigue, and shopping for images, I went into the neon
fruit supermarket, dreaming of your enumerations!
  What peaches and what penumbras!  Whole families shopping at 
night!  Aisles full of husbands!  Wives in the avocados, babies in the tomatoes!
--and you, García Lorca, what were you doing down by the watermelons?

  I saw you, Walt Whitman, childless, lonely old grubber, poking
among the meats in the refrigerator and eyeing the grocery boys.
  I heard you asking questions of each: Who killed the pork chops?    
What price bananas?  Are you my Angel?
  I wandered in and out of the brilliant stacks of cans following you,
and followed in my imagination by the store detective.
  We strode down the open corridors together in our solitary fancy 
tasting artichokes, possessing every frozen delicacy, and never passing the 
cashier.

  Where are we going, Walt Whitman?  The doors close in a hour.
Which way does your beard point tonight?
  (I touch your book and dream of our odyssey in the supermarket and
feel absurd.)
  Will we walk all night through solitary streets?  The trees add shade
to shade, lights out in the houses, we'll both be lonely.
  Will we stroll dreaming of the lost America of love past blue automo-
biles in driveways, home to our silent cottage?
  Ah, dear father, graybeard, lonely old courage-teacher, what America
did you have when Charon quit poling his ferry and you got out on a 
smoking bank and stood watching the boat disappear on the black waters of
Lethe?

- See more at: http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15306#sthash.f7iPv9hw.dpuf

In my own words the poem is very simple and straight forward.  A man is shopping at a grocery store in California late at night.  He takes images of the modern day store and relates them to great literary men of the past like Walt Whitman and Garcia-Lorca would think of the modern atmosphere.  He pictures himself almost like an erotic lover who strolls alongside of Walt Whitman analyzing with him the atmosphere.  He connects the grocery store to larger questions about life, just as his predecessors would have done.

For me this poem is a satirical look on American life.  It brings high art to the mundane to life and takes it into a greater level by pairing the mundane with the magical like poetic geniuses.     It is sort of a social commentary on what American culture has become.  As he bemoans the state we think of the art in society it reveals the art and romance of the everyday mundane.

The format of the poem is lyrical in reading it out.  One of the fun things is to hear the original YouTube version of it.  The way it flows feels almost musical.  Yet visually the poem resembles much more like prose.  The lines are particularly long and there is a fluid enjambment between lines giving it a very different auditory feel than a traditional poem.    Syntax is also very jumbled.  He has a unique parenthetical statement, which gives the poem a sensual feel that might otherwise not have been noticed through the lines.  There are also a few moments where the line is continued into a drift through the use of dashes.  Both of these aspects lead to a really great feel of a more lyrical movement.

The poem is done in first person.  It is very reminiscent of Keats poems about nature.  The way Ginsburg communicates with his muses of the past in a very intimate sort of way.  It reminds me a lot of the Woody Allen movie “Midnight in Paris”  where Owen Wilson is a modern day writer who is conversing with some of the great artists of the past. 

What he also achieves through this conversation is a connection with his modern day audience.  Rather than just referring to past artists there are specific moments where he feels to me as if he is directly talking to me as well.  In statements like: “Will we walk all night through solitary streets?”  At first I felt he was talking primarily about walking with Walt but through further reading I felt connected.  As if he was asking me to be his companion through the night.

I love this poem.  I lived and worked in Los Angeles and in Las Vegas NV for several years.  I think it is a neat way to look at the mundane.  Supermarkets are not the usual muses for art.  Yet he makes it so real.  There is also a bit of satirical humor that makes this thing just really come to life.  Anytime I’m asked to do a project on a poem this is always the one I choose.  I know Ginsburg didn’t like girls but boy I have a crush on his writing!




Thursday, July 23, 2015

So I Suppose You Want me to Write You a Poem…

(This poem was written in October while my mother was in a coma dying.  Just as we see in TS Elliot's "The Wasteland" I wanted the piece to not only hearken to my own feelings but create a conversational dialogue with other poets.)

So I suppose you want me to write a poem about flower petals falling gently to the nightstand of the hospital bed as I sit in Longfellow’s sleepless watches of the night.  What Mr. Longfellow forgot to mention were the buzzes of the monitors measuring the final moments of life interspersed with alarms and questions of when, no longer if. 

As I watch my mom, stuck in a Twilight worse than Stephanie Meyers’, she begins to choke one more time on the mucous collecting in her throat; I feel as though I have let her down by allowing her to live like this.  For Cummings you were wrong telling me death is strictly scientific & artificial & evil & legal for that is the life I am forcing my mother to live and death is the natural gift that I offered her only after it was too late.

I am sorry Ms. Dickinson that my poem lacks the formal feeling that you speak of after the great pain but I’m not there yet.  I sit in the hospital angry- helpless- wishing I could be anywhere but there.  I live in a fucking hell that follows me wherever I now go.. 


There is no way to describe in a poetic way the shitty way I feel with out you mom.  Neither Longfellow nor Dickinson can express the pain it is to watch you in the realms of where life meets death and peace cannot be found.  For perhaps Frost speaks most clearly the doctors have placed you in “the dark of ether” nevermore.


Focus on Technique: Ekphrastic Art and Poetry

I met Larry Thomas at a reading three years ago.  He taught me about Ekphrastic art.  His poem the Tower Blue Horse was based on the Franz expressionist art and is a symbiotic reaction to the beauty of the piece.  To this day he is still one of the few visiting artists that I keep in touch with (and “The Skin of Light” was one of my first books.) What fascinates me is how he wholeheartedly accepts ekphrastic art as an art form rather than forcing his own originality always.  Instead his originality is birthed in artistic paintings of others. 

The best ekphrastic poetry can place an image in the reader’s head of the inspiration even if the reader is unfamiliar with the inspiration.  For example in Rita Dove’s poem “Golden Oldie”

I made it home early, only to get
stalled in the driveway-swaying
at the wheel like a blind pianist caught in a tune
meant for more than two hands playing.
The words were easy, crooned
by a young girl dying to feel alive, to discover
a pain majestic enough
to live by. I turned the air conditioning off,
leaned back to float on a film of sweat,
and listened to her sentiment:
Baby, where did our love go?-a lament
I greedily took in
without a clue who my lover
might be, or where to start looking.

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/golden-oldie/

I understood how when the artist heard that song it didn’t matter how mundane work had been or boring the car ride was in.  That song reawakened her and through the poem it awaked me!  I knew that song with out actually listening to it.   Her work transported me to the car of my lost mother and how she and I would bop to the 40’s on 4 together and get lost like Dove did, in the music.

This is seen in all sorts of art and throughout media.  It goes back to the idea of what Walter Benjamin theorized in aura, it is the affect art can have on the individual.  It has a sense of nearness and authenticity.  Once art being something only the minority hierarchy of society with the advent of modern communication the masses now have nearness with art and through this we see an explosion of ekphrastic art.  For example not many today would know what I meant by I could attend the ballet a thousand times to see Peter Ilyich Tchaikovsky” but if I start to sing the Disney version of “Once Upon a Dream” everybody could hum Tchaikovsky’s classic tune.

This can also be seen in fiction for example a “Good Scent from a Strange Mountain”.   The story in itself is a piece of art.  But throughout the story you can see how the narrator, blind man, and wife are all affected by different genre’s of art.  One example is the wife who is inspired by the blind man touching her face and wrote a poem.  She writes a poem a few times each year to mark life milestones.  The best example though is the narrator trying to describe the artwork of the cathedral and than the blind man helping him draw it without sight.  It is that place where the narrator gains a second sight and the readers understand Butler’s goal of looking beyond the sighted world.

All of my personal art is connected to the ekphrastic world.  I found dark humor in a serious dramatic piece inspired by The Producers, “Spring Time for Hitler” for example and created a dark humorous play: Dreamtime for Hitler that inspires it’s essence but morphs into a different work and place.  I theorize that unless your inspiration comes strictly from your own perspective of nature every one’s art will have ekphrastic elements to it.  For example, my brother loves trains and grew inspiration through the graffiti that was on it.  After dancing in the Corps de Ballet as a youth I can’t ever stop and drool over a Degas.  Life imitates art and than we as artist can imitate both.

This is an example of ekphrastic art. A ballet production club took a very unique alternative song based on the current issues of homosexuality



and inspired it into a ballet brought into an older world



Than as a principal dancer in the right setting affected me the art turned into a unique short story for me that really went to completely different place again.


So my husband left me for dog...

(The style of this poem is rhyme time.  I love rhyming in poetry as a child with authors such as Dr. Suess for example and now poets like Theodore Roethke delight me.  This poem is in honor of the whimsical style these writers possessed.)  

So my husband left me over a dog…

Constant (barking sarcastically) soft has caused me to stray
Straying from red headed fury over a some small child’s that day
Day after day (the small red headed man says “no more pets I say
Say what?  My man is so cliché!

Okay, Animal Control is right here on my way.
Way I will go to stop and watch the kitty’s frolic and play
Playing sweetly, I watched the kitten cabaret.
Caberating in came a small dog about to decay.

Decay by needle they go only to be thrown away.
Away with the needle I told the orderly with out delay!
Delaying not I picked up pumpkin bunny like fur did not betray
Betray not I say in my new attatche
Attache of Saint Francis I felt (dare I say)

Say to my husband can’t he stay?
“Stay I will not unless he goes away”
Away he must not go for risk of decay
“Decay I care not, I cannot be sway”
Sway the man did out the door to my dismay

Dismay I did feel before bunny wet nose implored to play
Play not now I am sad today.
Today the redheaded pumpkin continued a cuteness cliché
Cliché who cares?  And so we did play!
One day red headed anger will come back and stay.



Wednesday, November 28, 2012

I iz Kewl!


Look into my eyes and knowah I iz kewl!

This is mah blog!  I iz a Kat.  Kats r kewl.  Any Questions?

Seriously r u one of da humanz who don't likeah kitteh's?

You must be a dawg people...


Dawg peoplz suck... on pacifiers.

U can now leavah dis blog. 

U r not kewl.

....

U still here?  Really?

 U likeah kitties?

Kitteh likeah u?
Okaz uze can stah!

Welcome to da Kamikaze Kitteh World!

Bad Luck Kitteh


You ask a lot of Humanz wat they think of meez and some will say I'm this!


I personally find it to be ah dah discrimination.  You know the stereotypes of being black!  After allz how many times do you see people worried to cross ah dah white cat?  Itz true!  According to Wikipedia (dah best most reliable resource in academia today)we black cats are victims of dah prejudice and da superstition of bad luck!  

Mah human'z hubbeh thinkah I've been bad luck cause since I came to liveah wit mah human and her'z family she has been in a car wreck, diagnosed with amoebic dysentary, had a hiatal hernia, laproscopy, and den another more serious car accident.  It wasn't mah fault doh!  It was just a bad coincidence.  





BUT we also be signs of good luck!  Back in olden daze Egyptians loved da black kittehs cause we represented the Egyptian God Bast.  Fisherman always used symbols of us black cats for good luck and der wives would keep ah black catz in der homes to ensure da hubbehs comb home safely! We also have been features in religions like Wicca as magical and in Chinese culture as a form of the famed "Success Cat".  

In modern art I am a muse for many, especially in da days of Impressionism.  In Las Vegas all da cool magicians have da kitties and many of us are black.  Dat is probably part of da reason mah human wanted a black cat.  She knew just how cool we be.  Truth be told I never cauzed her bad luck but I sure do makeh a her happy as she recovers.  Black Cats get a bad rap, in reel life though we are da good luck and bring joy to everyone!  Dat is why mah human loves meez!